Me & My Fruitful Day

This is a story about what happened in my life on April 10, 2014. Di hari itu, hari Kamis tanggal 10, saya pagi-pagi sudah mandi dan bersiap untuk berangkat ke Dispora Bandar Lampung untuk mengikuti proses seleksi salah satu program yang diadakan oleh Kemenpora. I’m not gonna tell you deeper about what the program is about, I’m just gonna write my experience during that selection program. It’s gonna be a super long post, so don’t say I didn’t warn you from the beginning J

Awal mulanya, sebelum tanggal 10, saya sudah daftar untuk mengikuti  program ini dan melengkapi semua persyaratan berkas yang diminta, dari mulai formulir, essay, sampai SKCK  (perjuangan juga lho ternyata bikin SKCK; kantor kelurahan – rumah Pak RT – kantor kelurahan lagi – baru ke kantor polisi). Setelah lengkap semua berkasnya, saya berangkat ke Dispora dan mendaftar pada tanggal 7. Saat menyerahkan berkas,  saya ada di urutan ke 36 dan itu sudah hari terakhir. Waktu itu yang langsung kepikiran di otak saya, ‘wah berarti saingannya ga banyak-banyak banget nih, alhamdulillaah’.

Sehari kemudian (08/04), pengumuman peserta yang lolos seleksi berkas diumumkan. Saya sih ga merasa dag-dig-dug di tahap ini, karena toh yang diseleksi hanya berkasnya dan saya merasa berkas saya sudah lengkap. Ternyata benar, nama saya ada di list yang lolos ke tahap selanjutnya (beserta nama sebagian besar peserta lainnya yang berkasnya juga lengkap *yaiyalah*). Karena nama saya Annisa dan ada diurutan atas karena disusun berdasar abjad, saya ga liat-liat lagi nama-nama peserta lainnya yang ada di bawah-bawah saya. Saya sibuk latihan main cetik (alat musik tradisional Lampung) dan bingung mau pake baju apa waktu tes tertulis dan wawancara di tanggal 10.

College Life: Last Day

Management 2009

Bakrie School of Management - Class of 2009

Friday (25/01) was the last day of the last final exam for (most of) BSM 2009 members. We've finished our 7th semester and are soon-to-be fresh graduates. After this, may be we won't meeting each other so often as we have no class schedule anymore for the next semester. Everyone's going to be busy finishing his/her final paper, some of us might be busy working or running own businesses as well, and those are the reasons why we decided to do this photo session after finishing the last subject of our last final exam. Documenting a sweet memories of college life. For the sake of all tears and laughs, joy and sweats, and all of the memories we have shared together, I love you all, my college's mates! See you on the graduation day!

*p.s.: Can you find me on those photos? :p

Interview 2.1

Hari-hari pertama di awal tahun ini dihabiskan dengan sangat sukacita dan heavenly bersama my favorite mammals in the world (read: my whole family) di rumah tercinta dan sesekali family time yang simpel tapi seru kayak jalan-jalan ke pantai atau makan di luar, selain itu juga bisa  meet up sama teman-teman SMP dan ngobrol-ngobrol cantik, trus juga sempet-sempetin ke dokter gigi, hasil iseng-mau-sok-check-up yang akhirnya membuat saya harus menghabiskan pagi sampai siang di dokter gigi selama 2 hari berturut-turut untuk di scaling plus membuahkan dua tambalan di geraham bawah. Selain dokter gigi, sempet juga mampir ke salon langganan jaman SMA. Bedanya, kalo dulu nyalonnya rame bareng temen-temen dan seringnya masih pake seragam karena baru pulang, kemarin kesana sendirian dan udah tambah tua, seragam SMA pun udah entah dimana rimbanya.

Tapi, ibarat tattoo, semua ke-surga-an itu hanyalah temporary. Pada akhirnya harus balik lagi ke Jakarta dan menjalani hari-hari tanpa sarapan (karena seringnya males gerak dari kasur) dan perkuliahan-perkuliahan terakhir di malam hari. Nih waktu nulis post ini, saya udah resmi (insyaAllah) ga bakal ada perkuliahan lagi sampe dapet gelar sarjana S1. Sekarang sih belum terasa apa-apa, tunggu aja beberapa minggu atau beberapa bulan dari hari post ini di-publish, pasti udah sadar dan kangen berat sama masa-masa kuliah plus dengerin dosen komat-kamit di depan kelas. Kalo kegiatan perkuliahan udah selesai, berarti tinggal nunggu UAS terakhir dan selesaiin revisi laporan magang. Setelah itu, mulai hubungin dosen pembimbing dan bikin proposal skripsi. Life is using super-jet machine, it flies really really fast. 

TTD 2013

Picture taken from Google

Instead of resolution or else, I would like to call all the activities that I should accomplish in this year as "things to do". I'm writing it all here, so that I can review it later when 2013 is going to end, therefore I will be able to see how many things I actually do in 2013, and hopefully this will keep me on track. I think it would be fun, so why not trying? :)

1. Graduate from Universitas Bakrie
As I am now at my senior year at uni, so there is no other options but finishing my final paper and graduating soon. Hopefully, I will have been graduated before July 2013. Can I get an amen?

2. Add some more working experience before graduating
Working experiences are indeed important to support our career path and gain some practical knowledge, right?

3. Do vacation together with my friends
I think this is the last year before being a full-time adult. I mean, I and my friends are graduating soon and retiring as an undergraduate students. So, before we cannot see each other face as often as these days, why not going on vacation and have fun together.

4. Objectify dream project in term of business
I'm a business student and I'm graduating soon, I like doing business and I want to have my own business. 2013 may be a perfect time to start doing a real business. Hopefully I will be able to make it true on this year, together with my partner-in-crime.

5. Have a permanent job after graduating
Being unemployed may be a biggest fear for every fresh-graduate, including myself. But every fresh-graduate has his/her own definition of permanent job. For me, permanent job have a broad meaning, it could be working on some companies as an employees, and it could also mean making your own company and start being an entrepreneur.

6. Be able to drive!
I'm 19 going on 20, yet I can't even drive a car and I think I need that skill. So, I want to learn to drive and may be have a driving license by the end of this year.

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That's all my major things to do, besides, I still have another things to do such as doing more sport, pray more, and having breakfast more often (yes, I'm that lazy to even have my breakfast). I hope the eagerness will stay with me all along this year, so I will be able to accomplish all the good things as much as I can on this year. Aamiin. Anyway, have a good day!

No Calls

Source: Google

It was a so-so evening when my phone rang, a call from unknown number. I was in my room, browsing random stuffs on my notebook. I picked it up. I heard a lady voice ensuring that she called a right number. Then, I had a quite quick chit-chat with her before she hung up. Actually, I could say that it  was a happy call (not that famous happy call pan, of course). She told me that there’s a manager in her company want to do a phone interview with me.

So, yes, I was very-wery-berry happy at that time. She told me the date and the exact time when the manager would call. I memorized it and waited for that day to come. Excitement.

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Hanging Out with Old Friend

Meet my high school friend, Nanda, last Monday and we spent our time all day in Grand Indonesia (yes,  expensive, I know). Actually, I don't really like Grand Indonesia that much (except it's interior design) because I don't feel like I am part of their market segment. I usually go here just for watching movie at Blitz or eating with friends. Shopping? Not interested. Because I am not a branded type and it just doesn't feel right if I spent my parents' money for buying something that sooo expensive, hehe. But may be I would love to go shopping here when I become financially independent :)

I went to Yoshinoya, Marché, Gramedia, and Blitz at that day. All of them are not a new thing for me except Marché. Yes, I haven't been there before. So, let me share my first exploration here.

19th Birthday's Wishes

I'm turning 19  on 27th November. Thank you & amin ya rabbal 'alamin for all the birhday wishes! And  thank you too for the presents :) By the way, people tend to make life resolutions when they're having their birthday, no? I don't usually do that, but if I have to make a resolutions before I turn 20, it would be:

1. Being more organized and less spontanious. (Because you know, sometimes I hate myself to the fullest when I become an expert-procrastinator).
2. Graduate, get my bachelor degree, and make my parents cry (...because of happiness).
3. Financially independent. Aaamiiin....
4. Going abroad. Wherever outside Indonesia, because I don't care about the destination, I just want to go abroad.
5. Growing mature and loves Allah more and more and more.

Hari Ini

Hari ini saya membaca banyak sekali komentar dan opini yang sangat beragam seputar berita Gaza, Palestina. Sebagian besar mengecam keras perlakuan Israel terhadap Palestina, sebagian mendukung Israel, sebagian lagi mempunyai salah satu dari dua opini tersebut namun merasa tidak perlu membicarakan dan memulai perdebatan lewat media sosial karena menurut mereka itu tidak relevan dan sia-sia.

Sebagian ada yang menulis opininya di website atau akun sosialnya masing-masing (mungkin seperti yang sedang saya lakukan sekarang) dengan versi dan pemahamannya masing-masing. Tentu saja, setelah tulisan tersebut di publish, pada akhirnya memunculkan opini-opini baru dari para pembacanya, sebagian setuju dengan apa yang ditulis, sebagian sangat bertentangan dan melontarkan komentar-komentar pedas.

Tujuan saya menulis tulisan ini bukan karena saya juga ingin ikut melontarkan komentar saya tentang Palestina dan Israel. I just want to write on my own blog, for my own reminder, that people in this world really see problems from various perspectives, and I often get confused after reading so many different opinions sampai-sampai saya jadi blur di sisi mana sebenarnya saya berdiri dan pendapat apa yang saya punya untuk masalah-masalah yang saya baca tersebut.

Hiburan Hore

Udah pada tau kan ya kalo hari ini adalah Harpitnas alias hari kejepit nasional. Nah, daripada garing karena bengong-bengong aja di kamar, saya dan teman saya nan cantik jelita (sebut saja namanya Hesti, hahaha) akhirnya memutuskan untuk jalan-jalan ke toko buku dan hypermarket. Emang ga jauh sih jalan-jalannya, deket banget malah, kalo istilahnya anak muda jaman sekarang, "kepeleset aja nyampe" hahaha :)) Eits, tapi jangan salah, walaupun deket jalan-jalan ke tempat belanja gitu bisa tetep me-nye-nang-kan dan refreshing, yuhuuuuuu~

Nih, tips (ga penting) ala-ala Annisa dan Hesti kalo supaya hari-hari kalian lebih berwarna saat pergi ke hypermarket manapun, hahaha.

My Internship Story

"Ini hari terakhir kamu ya Annisa? Haduh anak manis, jangan sampe ada yang ganggu yah..."

kira-kira begitulah kalimat yang diucap sama Pak Ekel di hari Jumat (7/9) kemarin, yang seterusnya saya udah ga fokus lagi dan rasa-rasanya kok kayak ada yang mau keluar dari mata ini. Akhirnya saya cium tangan beliau aja dan ga ngeliatin muka beliau karna takut beneran nangis. Pak Ekel sendiri adalah senior officer & consultant di MBDIna (singkatan untuk Mercedes-Benz Distribution Indonesia) sekaligus my new favorite man. Beliau sangat kebapakan, ramah, dan care sama seluruh pegawai lain di MBDIna. He often gave compliment & comforting words for us in the middle of our works, and for me, it's really comforting. He is 72 year-old and still so energic. Rasanya kayak punya kakek yang kerja di satu kantor sama saya, hehe.

Waktu Pak Ekel bilang begitu, saya emang lagi salam-salaman dan say good bye sama mba-mba dan beberapa mas-mas dan bapak-bapak disitu karna hari itu memang hari terakhir saya kerja sebagai anak magang disitu. Sudah genap dua bulan saya magang dan ada beberapa alasan yang membuat saya (pada akhirnya) memutuskan untuk tidak memperpanjang kontrak magang saya. But, over all, it was an amazing 2 months for me experiencing new stage of life.

Dan sesungguhnya saya adalah orang yang sangat ga seneng sekaligus emosional sama yang namanya perpisahan. Hari itu juga sama, saya memang berhasil untuk tidak nangis di kantor; tidak saat salah seorang mba-mba meluk saya; tidak saat saya berjalan ke pintu depan diiringi ucapan dadah dadah dari beberapa orang; tidak waktu saya mengembalikan nametag internship saya ke ibu sekretaris; dan tidak juga waktu saya akhirnya melangkah keluar dari gedung Deutsche Bank. Tapi iya saya nangis pas udah duduk di atas Kopaja P20 yang setiap Senin-Jumat selalu saya tumpangi dari Menteng sampe Kuningan selama 2 bulan belakangan ini. Berawal dari ngelamun sendiri ngeliat keluar jendela bis, dan akhirnya nangis beneran. Dasar cengeng.

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Melanjutkan cerita di post ini, yes finally I got a good news I've been looking for. Thanks God. Masih segar diingatan tentang hari pertama saya magang disitu. Berangkat pagi-pagi dan menunggu 20 menit di depan meja resepsionis sampai akhirnya supervisor saya datang dan mengajak saya naik ke lantai 18 (resepsionis ada di lantai 17, btw) dan mengenalkan saya sama semua orang di kantor. Hari pertama ngantor was a total confusion, karna di hari itu juga, saya langsung dijejelin ilmu seputar COMSYS, Global Ordering Portal, bikin new order, macam-macam tipe mobil, etc. etc. Tapi ya seneng sih, berarti isi otak sedikit bertambah kan? hahaha

Not gonna tell y'all about all my works stuff or any routine things I did there, because I know it will be boring to read. I'll tell you what I've got there, instead. Dan yang saya maksud dengan "got" adalah  semua yang beneran saya dapat selama disana yang kelihatan wujudnya, bukan sesuatu yang abstrak macam pengetahuan atau pengalaman baru (karna kalo itu kan udah pasti and no need to mention, no?).

Jadi, satu hal yang saya suka sebagai anak magang disana adalah budaya bawalah-makanan-untuk-teman-kantor-saat-anda-ulang-tahun, yang mungkin juga menjadi budaya tidak langsung di banyak perusahaan lain. Luckily, selama saya magang disitu, ada banyak orang yang ulang tahun! yang berarti... ada banyak makanan gratis, hahaha (dasar mental anak kos). Kadang-kadang walaupun ga ada yang ulang tahun, tetap ada makanan yang dibagi-bagiin ke semua pegawai. Entah itu ibu sekretaris yang tiba-tiba order burger karna alasan yang saya ga tau sampe sekarang, atau ibu-ibu yang lagi iseng bikin mie goreng sebelum ngantor dan dibawain buat kita-kita, atau para bapak-bapak yang baik hati dan bagi-bagi toblerone mini dan cupcakes. Intinya, seru sih. Oh iya, saya juga pernah dapet kaos gratisan karna ada salah satu manager yang lagi beres-beres ruangan dan akhirnya membagikan semua barang-barang merchandise ga kepake di ruangannya.

So, last but not least, tentunya ucapan terima kasih buat seluruh pegawai MBDIna, especially my supervisor, Mr. Yudi Lesmana (now, I know his full name). If you (somehow) read this post, thanks a bunch for letting me in to your team. It's a pleasure. And for every stupid mistake I did, I have no other words but sorry. I had some fun in your company :) May the next intern of your team is better than me. Once again, super thaaaanks Mercedes-Benz Distribution Indonesia ;)

Thanks, August.

Before I start writing about my August, let me say Happy 67th Independence Day Indonesia & Eid Mubarak! Still, better late than never, right? Hehe.

My life this August is full of new experience. August permits me to taste different flavor of life, it allows me to play a new role. No longer college student, but transformed as a full-time-worker who goes to office from Monday to Friday, sits and talks with monitor from 8 to 4, all with different suit, worker style. August also teach me new understanding and new way of thinking. Being an intern, you know, is not that easy (nor that hard too, anyway. Being CEO is still harder, tho hahaha). But yea, it's tricky, I mean, you have to know your position, where sometimes people look down on you or ask you to do things that usually done by office boys; when some parts of you refuse but some others realize that you still have to do that. It gives me new understanding about "you do really have to climb before reach the top". Maybe, I'll tell you more about my internship experience on the next post. Then, Ramadhan is also happened on August this year, and finally I was able to meet my family and celebrated Eid Al-Fitr together, also met some of my old friends and my high school teachers. So refreshing. You know sometimes you get motivated by listening others story and sharing yours.

And yes I am ready for another adventures on the next and next and next months. Still have many things to be done, and many dreams to be realized. Never-give-up, Ciao!

Korean Grill with My Girls

Me, @utitatituteto, @ragatniaclara, @melisefrina, @mayangalfina, @hestiaura & @bonita_sari at Korean Grill (03/07) after doing our Financial Statement Analysis' Final Exam.

p.s: there's no Bonita picture not because I hate her lho ya hehe, but because she didn't want to be pictured at that time :)

Korean Grill

Mediterania Gajah Mada Residence, Ruko Unit C9

Jln. Gajah Mada No. 174, Jakarta

End-of-June Post

Waktu selalu berjalan sangat cepet ya kayak yang sering saya bilang kalo lagi bikin post disini, hehe. Sekarang udah akhir Juni aja deh tau-tau, yang artinya kita udah menghabiskan separuhnya tahun 2012. Kalo diliat dari sisi akademik, ternyata eyke udah mau masuk semester tujuh yah. Pusying cyiiin~ hahaha :p

Bulan Juni-Juli-Agustus tahun ini buat saya jadi agak complicated kayak status facebook karena ada banyak hal yang harus dilakukan dan dikerjakan. Ada UAS yang masih belum selesai juga (padahal kampus lain udah selesai UAS dari satu dekade yang lalu zzz); ada juga yang namanya magang, yang selalu sukses bikin was-was dan galau sampe kebawa mimpi (sebenernya emang saya sih yang tukang mimpi kalo lagi tidur, hal-hal ga penting macem iPhone 5 yang baru diliat pas browsing sebelum tidur aja bisa jadi obyekan mimpi saya); trus ada juga jalan-jalan angkatan 2009; juga acara-acaranya ISAFIS tercinta yang tidak lain dan tidak bukan adalah Jakarta Model United Nation (JMUN) 2012 dan Indonesia International Week (IIW) 2012. Hebatnya, mereka semua bersatu dalam melodi dan irama, dengan tanggal yang nyaris samaan dan dempet-dempetan persis orang naik kopaja pas jam pulang kerja. :s

Jadinyaaa sekarang dengan sangat menyesal yah harus ada yang dikorbankan deh. Kali ini yang harus dikorbankan adalah jalan-jalan angkatan yang seyogyanya *halah* bakal diadain dari tanggal 6 sampai 8 Juli, karena tanggal 6 juga bakal ada Opening Ceremony IIW 2012 dimana saya mau ikut bantu-bantu plus ngerecokin plus lagi ketemu bule-bule, hahahaha; dan di tanggal 7 saya musti ngejemputin 7 anak-anak Laos di bandara (dan sepertinya juga bakal jadi tour guide dadakan + gratisan) karena mereka bakal jadi participants JMUN 2012 yang dimulai tanggal 9 Juni. Padahalnya lagi, tanggal 9 Juni itu (seharusnya) adalah hari pertama saya magang, tapi berhubung sampai saat ini masih menunggu jawaban dari  si Perusahaan, yaudah deh yuk mari enjoy aja, haha. Tahun ini juga ga bisa ikut IIW ke Jogja dan Bali kayak tahun lalu karena harus ngurusin kejelasan magang tadi. Tapi tak apa-apa, ntar saya deh yang susulin tu bule-bule ke negaranya masing-masing (amiin), hehehe.

Sekian curhatan saya kali ini, intinya mah I wanna get rid of this final exams and start enjoying my summer holiday, as soon as possible, please. Sampai jumpa di curhatan-curhatan ga penting lainnya di kemudian hari. Babay!

My Interview Story

Photo Source: here

I had my first internship interview last Monday afternoon at Mercedes-Benz Distribution Indonesia, the office building is located at Imam Bonjol Street, near Bundaran HI.

Several weeks ago, I sent my application to Mercedes-Benz for an internship in marketing division, it was my very first application because until I write this post, I haven’t sent any other applications to another companies. So, I sent my cover letter, internship application letter, GPA transcript, and also my CV to their HR Department, and surprisingly, on Wednesday (20/06) I got a phone call from Mercedes-Benz and the lady on the phone said whether I could come for an interview on Friday morning or not. I directly said that I could make it, and its deal. But, the next day, she called me again and said that the interview had to be cancelled because the interviewer had another business, and the interview was rescheduled to be on Monday at 2 p.m.

What's Up?

Miss my lovely page :)

How's life, dear self? Hmm... life's good, thanks for asking, haha.

So now, I am on my way of finishing my sixth semester, have just finished my A2.1 level in my German Course, and have just sent internship application because I have to do internship in my seventh semester. (is it that near to the 7th semester? Oh yea, I am getting older). Experiencing many great moments but sadly, lately I didn't capture pictures. And oh yes, my laptop is broken! My laptop is broken when I so freakin' need it to do piles of tasks. Fortunately, angel-without-wings is do exist, if you know what I mean :)

A2.1 (read: A-zwei-ein) Klasse

Try to Deal

Experience is a hard teacher because it gives the test first and the lesson afterward — Vernon Law

Hi all, here I come back blogging about another random thought that have just pooped on my head. This time is about dealing.

So, just for your unimportant-common-knowledge, I lost my phone 3 weeks ago when I was hanging out with some great friends, we were so happy, laughed out loud, and I feel that it was one of amazing days of mine, until it turned out become a ‘blank moment’ when I realized that my phone was not there in my bag. I tried my best to make it come to me back, but maybe God have the different plan, so yea, now I am officially lose it.

But what I want to tell is not about my sadness of losing that phone or how mad I am with the one who took it out from me, what I want to tell is that what happened to me makes me realize thing that maybe I have ever realized before but forget it right away, that is dealing. Life is about dealing, dealing with the situations, dealing with others, dealing with your friends, dealing with imperfections, anything. Dealing for the fact that we’ll never know what future’s gonna give us. Maybe sometimes we feel uneasy, or think that life is unfair, but as long as you believe that God is the best scenario maker, you’ll believe that life is gonna be always fair, it is, by its own way. If your life was a film, then God is able to give you  twists, not only at ending, but at any part of your life that you will never expect. And every twist will leave you with a new life lesson.

As many people say, when life gives you lemons, just try to make a lemon tea, that way you will still able to enjoy your life. If you don’t like lemon tea, maybe you could try to  sell it and start to become a lemonade tycoon. There are may ways to enjoy life even at the what-you-think-the-worst-time-of-your-life, rite? So, I want to believe that when something (that I think) bad happen, something good is waiting for me afterward.

my lovely "research team" friends

My Very Own Cupcake

Hola! Today, my Saturday morning was filled up with productivity. I woke up early and went to campus for joining seminar and workshop about culinary business, more specifically, cupcakes! It was not only an ordinary talk show, but also... practice. Yes, each participant was given one cup cake to be decorated and 100 gr basic fondant. Tons of fun!

Surprisingly, everyone made a very very cute decoration for her/his own cup cake. Wanna see some of them? Just scroll down :)

@ragatniaclara, @linnosa02, @lisanasan, @widyayulitaps, @mayangalfina cupcakes

ISAFIS Inauguration, Bekasi 25-26 February 2012 (photo source © Fadhil)

Randomness

One post after finishing my Cost Accounting final exam. Never ask about how it was, because I don't know what sentences I should say to describe it. Too complicated, you know.

Anyway, yesterday I got a very happy news when I opened my email. Guess what? Letter of acceptance from ISAFIS. yeay! So, now I am officially an ISAFISian, more specific, Media Relation Staff of Division of Foreign Affair and National Relations. Danke schön, Gott :-)

Right after being accepted as a part of it, I am gonna have my first inauguration with all the members on January 28-29, at Puncak, West Java. The thing is, I also have a spend-holiday-together schedule with my HMM family on January 26-27, and yeah you are right, it takes place at Puncak too. So, my whole days in this weekend will be spent on traveling back and forth between Jakarta - Puncak, I guess. Somehow I am tired just by imagining it, hahaha.

Because I have been jumping from one topic to another in this post, let me continue my randomness by posting these photos, let's call them Memories of Last Year. Here they are!

Tidung Island, September 23rd-25th

My Birthday, November 27th

Hangout with Goethe Fams, Desember 21st

photo source: Andin

photo source: Andin

Tschüß!

me love you more than everything

Dear mom,

Just wanna say write that I miss you, much. I have just watched a very-heart-touching movie, and it all ends up with so much tears and so many thoughts about me and you, and what we have done together, what we cannot do together now, and what I am going to do—still—together with you.

Thank you for loving me, even since I haven’t born. Thank you for not only being my super mom, but also my super amazing friend who understands me best and willing to listen all my stories even when you are tired. Thank you for all the things you have been giving to me, especially your 24/7 love. Thank you for your prayers, thank you for everything.

Sorry for not being able to be on your side anymore. Sorry for making you upset. Sorry for those unacomplished expectations. Sorry for not telling you about everything happened to me in any single day I pass, that we used to do :) And still a bunch of sorry for my uncountable mistakes to you.

The day after tomorrow is my birthday, and I wouldn’t spend it with you. I wouldn’t have that very first wake-up-birthday-greeting from you, like I always had when you enter my room in the morning to open my window. But, then, it’s not a problem at the end. You always tell me that life is hard, and we have to be able to survive. You also tell me that no need to cry, because we always have God by our side. You told me many things, uh? :))

Wherever I am and wherever you are, we will still send a prayer to each other everyday, rite? There is no need to be sad because this is only the beginning. You said, maybe someday I will go further to reach my dream—a dream that I always tell to you—and it means not seeing each other for the long time. Even for not seeing each other forever when one of us has to come back home. And we have to be ready. :)

Whatever it is, I am super duper glad to be your child. And no matter what, I love you forever, mother.

With so much love (and tears) :p

Your only daughter.